What do I want to say?

Elizabeth, my teacher, asks me continually what I want to say. And I have no answer. I know that I want to create something beautiful. But as to what I want to say with it, I haven't a clue.

It is said that some artists try to "work through" their particular pain with their art. Perhaps I should try that. Make it a question, a search, a challenge to find answers through painting.

Strangely, it sounds trite to work on profound questions. Even embarassing. Nevertheless, if I could work out how to do it, such painting would certainly be true to myself.

Let's give it a shot.